Cooking Barefoot
For the longest time I’ve been turning over a new leaf and the journey has just seemed so difficult. I kind of knew what I wanted, sort of knew how to get there and had more-or-less an idea of how I wanted my life to be, but everything was so vague. I seemed to be fighting an endless battle to get to… I don’t know where!
Do you ever get the feeling that destiny has a path in mind for you and you just don’t realise it?
I believe my beloved D was sent to me, to help me see destiny’s path, yet I struggled and fought back because it wasn’t by my design, I wasn’t in control! STUBBORN!!
18 months ago I took a job I really didn’t want, it wore me down, upset me and deep down I knew I really didn’t want to be there. I would get home and off load pent-up frustrations and anger on D and following nearly every rant, D said - “leave”. I didn’t. STUBBORN!!
Last night, as the rain poured down and a storm raged outside, I was cooking, barefoot. I felt relaxed and the happiest I have felt for a long while and I questioned myself - why??
I have been fighting all this time against the inevitable and the moment I stopped fighting, everything is falling in to place! The journey was so difficult because I was determined it should be my way, but destiny is more stubborn than me!
Now I know what I want, I know how I want my life to be and I know that I want to share it all with D.
Cooking Barefoot! This is wonderful piece of writing Sarah and I am sooo very pleased you have finally given into your destiny. I spent years of my life doing it MY WAY until you well know that MY WAY just didnt work anymore and I left. I am proud of the risks you have taken, are taking and will keep taking in order to get as far as you have today and to keep your life on track. Keep fighting for what you want in life but dont be so stubborn and let life breathe, take one day at a time and enjoy every minute as you grow individually and with D. I find it really hard sometimes to accept the my destiny in a far away place, but I am happy here on my island and I know those who love and care for me are ultimately happy if I am content in what I am doing and where I do it! My life of adventures in the outdoors with S is my destiny and I sincerely cannot remember how I lived before all those years ago enclosed and emprisioned in MY WAY! The older I get the wiser I am and I just keep giggling at how easier it gets to cope with the very hard trials and tribulations my destiny throws at me! Life is beautiful and I wouldnt change anything. Keep smiling as everything will always fall into place in the end. Beijinhos xxx
Comment on July 31, 2008 @ 3:14 pm