Emotions
Oooh it’s a strange day! My dearest friend’s waters have just broken and she lies waiting to bring her babies into the world.
I have so many conflicting emotions, it’s almost impossible to express them all at once! I am so happy and excited for her, this means so much to her and therefore, so much to me. I love her like a sister and I know she is terrified of the coming hours and the pain they will bring. I am scared for her too. After such anticipation and longing, she will finally meet the creations which have been growing inside her all this time, after all the strife and worry.
Yet with all the love and happiness I feel for her, I cannot help but think about my own little soul and sadness creeps in. I am not jealous - how could I be, when I have never seen her so happy?! But there is an envy lurking, a desire, a wish for a second chance. A chance I don’t even know that I’ll get…I can only hope.
I am happy and sad, excited and worried, and my heart is full of love whilst it’s breaking with every breath.
In this case I dont think its about second chances, but not regretting the decisions we make in life. We only live once and must enjoy what life brings us every day! The grass often seems greener and often we are so wrapped up in finding happiness that we forget to enjoy the ride and the journey we are on, so dont think about the “what ifs” and smile each morning when you awake just to think you are still here breahting on the planet earth and lucky to have what you do have, after all we often treat so badly Mother nature, who is as precious as ourselves and without her we cannot survive. Relish in the happiness of those who surround you as they will do too in your happiness if you know how to channel your energy and beam it outwards! There is a time a place for everything , Dar tempo a tempo, and remember without the black moments we cannot appreciate the good ones! Lots of love and energy to you and Paula and the twins! Let me know when they are here!!! Mary xxxxxxxx
Comment on May 9, 2008 @ 3:56 pm